Mornings and Everything After

Things have been going crazy lately. I stopped drinking, then started drinking again, then almost drank myself to death, started seeing a shrink, then decided it was a waste of time and then i read tons of books and almost drank myself to death again. Found out how to watch movies on a PC without a hard drive and made Salmon en Papillote au Beurre de Basilic for x-mas and once again, almost drank myself to death. And then I decided that I have to go to London again. As much as I hate to admit it, I loved it there.

Sunlight shines through the small gap between the drapes on my window, and i can hear children laughing and playing outside. It's so surreal, you'd almost think it's summer, but it's not. It's December 23rd, two days till x-mas, and still no snow in sight. Sure there was snow in October (yeah like that's normal) and I remember about a year ago Reuben asked me if I believed in global warming, and i said, fuck no, I mean I'm left wing and all, but global warming? there's like no scientific proof of it, it's just a crazy hippie theory.

Well I wanted proof, I got proof. I hear that bears are going insane in Siberia, because of the whole hibernation thing. It's just like in Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep. The owls were the first to go. Well, in this world it's bears. But, as always, I don't care. And who was it that said that a little anarchy can be good once in a while? Well, there hasn't been any in a very long time.

Yesterday was a nice day. No rehearsals, everyone was drinking. I thought I'd go see Apocalypto, and it was alright i guess. Just before the movie started Mazonas said, "I hope there will be boobs" which is typical of him and about 1/3 of the movie in, he said "I hoped they would have been presented in a different fashion".

Mayan boobs aside, the movie was entertaining and it made me go ooh and wow a couple of times. The plot was really simple though. Basically Gibson is telling us, that humanity is inherently self-destructive and there's nothing we can do. Well duh.
After seeing Miami Vice I was really hoping that Gibson would use HD cameras in the same way that Michael Mann did, to bring realism to the movie. And he did. He was even better than Mann. Sometimes you'd think you're really watching a documentary and these are real Mayan people.

I'm glad I got to hang out with Mazonas, haven't seen him in a week. All he does is work work work. He has the day off today, and he definitely has a hangover after last night, but the dude still went to work. Now that is wrong. I should probably get a job too. Oh well, London can wait (i really don't want to work in Lithuania). There's still some stuff I want to do here, like being in a band and writing a book. And then I can work. Yeah.

Today the rehearsals went better than i expected. At least we played something half right. It was only me and Alfas. Timis got sick and Gijus was gone somewhere, and we couldn't get in touch with him. We started out with With or Without You which I played flawlessly, but then again, it's a really easy song to play. Alfas' vocals suck and i swear to God i sing it so much better than him, but he insists on being the lead singer, so whatever. It's not like I care. Still, if we want to play something for the new years party we have to rehearse like ten hours per day and my fingers are already starting to bleed. Note to self: buy band-aids (pun intended).

How do you take your tea or coffee?
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I take tea or coffee (love both) without any sugar and in huge mugs cause i just love to drink lots and lots of tea. Have like ten different flavors in my cupboard. and i drink like five cups a day. favorite flavor is earl grey.

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Glue. There's glue in my mouth.

Mornings really don't surprise me anymore. Well, 'mornings' is sort of a relative term in my case, since i usually wake up at, say, 1 pm, when everyone is already at work, college, school, or just doing stuff that they do. Sometimes i wake up at 2 am. Sometimes 4 am. Right in the middle of when people go to sleep and when people wake up. The worst is when you wake up at 8pm, when most people are already relaxing after a hard days work, having a beer, watching tv with their families, and you're just getting out of bed. Nevermind.

There's glue in my mouth, every time i wake up. A by-product of my own body. This stuff could probably stick two bricks together. The first sign, nay, an omen, that you cannot escape the horrible day that is to come. You can not wrap your self in those warm and fusy sheets and be safe from the horrors of this world. Glue is the organic substance that inevitably joins the security of sleep with the harsh reality that is waking up.

I know that some people wake up with a smile on their faces, and that there are people who wake up and the first thing they do is kiss their loved ones. And there are people who wake up and can't wait for the day to begin. I wake up with glue in my mouth.